The Senseless Journal

I want to finish it, but I kinda get stuck OTL Feel like want to change the arts, since the bodies looks kinda stiff. Aaah, I don't know. It can be 'Work In Process' Status, or even 'Unfinished'. I really like to do something and not finish it 8DD Yay!

...OTL

The black haired guy (Kurosawa Inoki) is mine. The blond-haired is (c) mineyo_shiki. BG taken from Absolute Obedience PC Game. Want to made it as Shiki's BDay Present, but it's too late. Aaakh. Such inconsistent person I am.

And just FYI, the black haired guy in this pic IS NOT the guy in my icon. Well, both drew by me but there are different person. I swear. And yesh, I'm such uncreative in design characters OTL

Not because of anything. I realized, there's so many things and so many kind of people in this world. There's some with some thoughts that we can't understand at all, and he/she also can't understand our thought, and sometimes, that makes us hate each other or such. And there's also some people that---I don't know, maybe his'her life is suck or too boring or something like that, so he/she need some dramas in his/her life.

And yesh that's called Drama Queen.

And dunno, because I'm too busy or maybe too hima, I remembered the dialogue in my old Original Story about this thing.

Arthur: (after go home from somewhere) That b*tch make me want to tear his tongue and drown his f***ing brain into the sea. It's just, oh, yes miss, the world is spin around you, you're the one and only victim here, and another ppls are villains. Heck, I'm better being a villain than a main character with that drama queen act! B****!

Julian: *cuckle* You never and can't be a main character with that kind of act and mouth, Arthur. It's just a drama queen. What's wrong with it?

Arthur: It's just wrong. She alive in this world just wrong. F***, like world can't spin without her! World would be better without her around.

Julian: Whysoserious, my dear Arthur? *laugh* You know? This world need more drama. World is boring without them. And do you know why ppl like them called 'drama queen'?

Arthur: *still mad, shook his head*

Julian: Because ppl loves drama. And everyone loves the queen. Queen and drama make our days, that's why they called drama queen. They made our lifes being colorful, and world would be boring without them~

Arthur: *glare* WORLD WOULD BE BETTER WITHOUT THEM.

Julian: My dear brother, Arthur, *sat beside him* (he is standing in front of sitting Arthur before btw), *circled his arm around Arthur's shoulder* they entertain us, just say it. Ah, and do you know their other name?

Arthur: *shook his head once more*

Julian: Sometimes, they also known as 'clown'. But the difference, clown know they're funny. But drama queens, they don't know how funny they are, and that's make them even funnier. Don't you think so?

-ok flash back ended-

Nothing in particular, but I just kind off laugh at my self who's being a drama queen once. Lol, and when thinking about it, I want to cry and laugh in same times. But that's mean we already walking straight, and not just stay in same place and spot.

And FYI, I still need help for my previous journal TTwTT

First, sorry to not lj-cut again, my computer was suck.

I need some data for my Role Playing Forum. It's need so many upgrade. So for you who maybe know about what I asked below, please anwser! >.<

It's about school system in Japan High School.

1. What subject they learn there? I mean, like, math, bioglogy, economic, et. School in my country has different subject in different grade. And there's so many subject here, but I don't think they study the same subject withs us...

2. What time usually the school ended? And how many time they have a break, and usually when and how long? (in my country, it's twice, for 15 minutes or so)

3. How long they study each subject? (in my country, it's 45 minutes per session. One subject can be one session per day, or two session per day)

4. What month and date usually the weather change in Japan?

5. When usually the students has their holiday?

6. How long the holiday is?

7. Except weather holiday, what holiday they had and how long?

8. What kind of uniform usually they used per weather if they had blazer for spring?

9. For third grade, when they usually have last exam, and when usually the university exam start?

That's all for now (wow, my English getting moar suck from day to day). I have asked seraphin_kaegan once, but the data I saved lost OTL

Earth quake, at 15.00 PM or so (I think it's before 15.00 PM thou).

So today, after I spent my days like hikkikomori, finally I went our with my sis and neighbour,
[info]mina_shou . We want to watch an Indonesian film, Merah Putih. We kinda late, and when we entered the cinema, the film already started, damn.

After 10 minutes or so I watched, I felt like my chair shaking. I think someone behind me kicking my chair or something like that, so I shout "hey, don't shake my chair!"

But when I turned my head, none sat behind me. When then someone shout 'earthquake!" and the cinema started to get in to panic. I was on 4th stairs, and the earthquake felt so strong. We really panic, and I really confused what to do. My sis ordered me to go out, and when I was almost go out from the cinema, I realized that I forgot my bag inside OTL

So then I back to take the bag again. The whole mall seem so panic. It kinda long, like 2-4 minutes. And strong, too. And what I though was 'I don't want to die here!" Buhuhuhu. I know it's so lame, but to die in a cinema in ramadhan month... OMG No please. That's really a shame. At least I want my end something nice like die when I shalat or so (ngarep dot kom).

So three of us immediately come home. Every one talked about it, and what I though that time was... GIMME BACK MY MONEEH! Argh. I just watch 10 minutes ;A; When my financial not really in good situation, it's such a waste OTL

But thanks God everythink was okay. I hope you're okay too, everyone! Take care of yourselves, nee?

(Okay then, Kai would back to his hikkikomori taem again)

(Forget the LJ-cut. I've tried it again and again and it's phail D:)

I. Have. Scanner~~~ *dancing happily*

OMG, I know it's not a big deal, but it IS for me TTwTT I really want to have it from loooong time, and finally I can buy it! Yay! It's Canon, and its result quite good 8D I prefer HP though, but it's a little moar expensive, hahahah.

Ok, I know it's so random.

Well, just for my friend, I'm okay here. It's just, I'm being Hikkimori here OTL almost never going outside, except for working. Ah, and today is President Election! Looks like the one I choose would win, ufufufu.

Lastly, ignore the picture I put in my every post now. Well, I decided to post my current art so when I opened LJ I can see my progress. That's why I didn't use LJcut for it.

And why I didin't LJ cut this random talk? Because I was lazy *slapped*

Okay, Kai would back to dancing doing her hikkimory-activity~ XD

Moar to do: 
-7 5 more Art Trade
-Editing my forum
-Doing an art for my forum's winner in festival
-Doing my Ori Manga for MKL
-Draw moar and moar and moar
-Etc I forgot

Well then, for my friends, just want to tell you, I;m alive and healthy here (even though I'm not sure I'll stay healthy with my sleep habit nao OTL)

Why I didn't active in LJ anymoar... you see, some my friends maybe know I'm really into RP now... A RP forum that I made and OMG the new members kept come and come again like amoeba DD: I still lazy thou, and moar into my own RP, not really doing the administrator's job properly... (well, the members know that they have a lazy headmaster thou XD)

Forget about that unimportant thing. Not just RP, but my projects and job really kill me... (I hope a day is 48 hours or more, argh!). Must-do-things nao:
-Finish 5 art trade (Some WIP)
-Finish my original manga (And the script still not done, I wanna cry)
-Finishing two contests in Deviantart
-RP and RP and RP (there's too much debt in replying post, i's like, well, you see, I have moar than 10 charas there, hahahaha)
-Tidy moar my forum since it's sooo much mess here and there, and I'm too lazy to do it lol
-Finishing some arts
Learn coloring moar
-Draw moar and moar and moar until it's get better
-Forget, but I think there's more to do XD

Draw more and more and more... Aaargh, yesh, I have some art block OTL Not really art block, but I just think my drawing really really suck until I wanna cry and rip them and throw them into the toilet but I just can draw and draw and draw until I can be better (well, honestly I just too lazy to spend too much hours in front of computer).

Hope there would be tablet fall from the sky X___X

Other than that, I'm really fine. Although I a little worry about my health. I have a very bad sleep habit, and when, hmm, some months ago my weight is 50-51, now it's 44-45... Scary, I really scare. I can't say I'm not glad, thou, to loss weight without have a diet or drink weird medicine, but to loss weight because of bad sleep habit make me scare ;A; (but still, I can't stop this habit, duh).

Other than that, I'm fine and still happy XD But looks like I can't cosplay anymoar (some cloth still kept in my cupboard ;A; when can I sew them or send them to the tailor???) Aaargh, I kinda loss urge to cosplay XD (but still, I must cosplaying my last cosplay because I have buy the cloth and too much waste to not sew them '____________')

Oh, and another problem.

BAD ENGLISH. lol. So sorry if you can't understand some of my bad language XDD

So then, Kai would back to hiatus~~~ *3* Hope you all fine, friends~! *smooch*

Terinspirasi dari Jurnalamanokawa_osa di Deviantart. Dimana ternyata sebuah kata singkat terasa begitu berarti untuk orang lain.

( THANK YOU )



( SORRY )



( REGRET )


( LOVE )


( RICH )


( HAPPY )


( QUESTION )


( UNGKAPKAN )

Gomen to be late, HAPPY BDAY, seraphin_kaegan! Gomen to be late >_< Ok, saya ngaku dosa, saya tau dari tittle MSNnya Shin OTL *ga pernah bisa apal BDay temen and lamaaaa ga buka lj*


Hope you will be happy, healthy, and always have nice days and times. My pray always be with you, hun *hugs*

((Continuation from Ernest Hall Dorm, after going back from the Valentine Party here))

((Random ppl please do not comment or I'll delete it ^^))

XD stole from shin_e

 
Hong Kong:

A recently returned, previous English colony.
His personality is that of which you can’t really tell what he’s thinking, and his way of talking is a mix of English and Japanese, making it seem a little Gyaru-o.

When he was under control of England, he often lit firecrackers at festivals, startling him and thus getting a giant scolding.

Really??? OTZ

Tonight Israeli would bomb the whole Palestine, including Al Aqsa mosque. If all of you have heart, please wish the best for Palestines!

If you are moslem, please read QS Yunus 85-88 and Al Fath 26-27.

Whatever your religion is, Israeli already too much! Now it's still just Palestine, but if they've finish with Palestine, who know what will they do next?

Not just an adult, they also kill all civillian, even woman and kids, even a new born baby! They also use chemical weapon! Even a hospital being bombed by them!!!! This is the proof of their sadistic:




Or you can browse the other video or googling it.

Or click no-more-ignorance.deviantart.com/journal/ for moaaaar info

Shout your heart! Don't let the Israeli continue their action! Whatever your religion, whatever your country, would you just bear it?

(soon) HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Hope next year would be a better year, and what we hope for next year would be come true!!!!

Uhh, soo, because I will stop my connection this month and will change it with the new connection (since the connection I used now really, really suck) so I just can online until less than 12 PM today, and won't online until the new connection set... ^^;;

Hope everyone have a happy new year!

Ah, and today I'm finally 19 years old D: feels so old... TTwTT

I'm super Stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, the project I did with Zakuro for weeks, and it almost finish, suddenly disappeared. Yea, disappear, for Heaven's sake!!!!!!!

I want to scream, cry, but that's useless. But when I contacted the person who can solved it, he said it just error and would back soon, even thought he didn't know when is it, but it's not really lost. I kinda doubt about it, but since I can't do anything about it, I just can wait. Maybe some days. If it still not back, I must make it again from start, and I can't finish it in deadline.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!

Yea, because of stress, so then Zakuro said she wants to do a hardcore RP XDD and I agree. She demand a KillianXKai RP, and since we can't do it in St. Theresa because it can't be happen in real RP, so then we will do it here. Yeah, here!

So then, Killian, who want to start first?

Sorry to be late!!!! >.<

Happy B'Day, arsen_freya ! :D

( random )

Again, a St. Theresa Fanfiction from me.

Dream Comes True?

Rating: NC-18

Genre: Romance, Humour

Disclaimer: St. Theresa Forum was not mine. It was Murasaki's and another awesome admin's. Killian, Riku, Yamael, Toutou, Aurelius, Dorian, Theodore, Ryu and Osa wasn't mine, they are belongs to their authors. I just own my bitchy Kai here.

Summary: Ok, I must explain first, this fic HAS NO RELATIONSHIP with the real story of RP. It's happen after the kissing scene in the garden maze with Killian, and kissing scene on the rooftop with Riku. In real RP, Kai fall in love with Riku ONLY, but in this fic, Kai fell in love with BOTH (For heaven's sake, my dear Kai was a bitch here XD) Ah, and it's also happen before Reid came, btw.

Warning: Unbetaed, grammatical errors, probability of some typos. Aaand, boys hardcore threesome. Don't like don't read, I've warn you. Oh, and possible of OOC, (especially Killian XD)

Author: Kai Natsuyou

( . Kai's face totally red heard a boy as innocent as Riku explain... well, such dirty things with his own way... )

A St. Theresa Fanfic from me.

Everything was So Sudden
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: KillianXJukka
Summary: just forget it, I hate write summary XD *get smacked*
Disclaimer: St. Theresa is own by the awesome Murasaki and another admins, Jukka and Killian was own by their authors. I just own Kai here XD
Genre: fluff (??), romance
Warning: kinda OOC and boyXboy kissing. don't like don't read. Oh, and unbetaed. My beta doesn't understand St. Theresa and busy.
Author: meh (Kai Nasuyou)


( Jukka came closer to see Killian clearer. His heart thumped more. And suddenly... really, it's sudden, Jukka lean to the sleeping boy and kiss him on the lips. )

Hay everyone! :D OMG, so long I didn't open my lj! Umm, maybe I'll not open/ active in lj for a moment.

Why?

Coz now I'm addicted to A Role Play Forum XDDD in that forum, we RP as our OC and do a lot of fun things in a new school... (you can have yuri/yaoi/staright character here, and of course, mine is yaoi XD) And this week there's a big event there (my character was kidnapped and finally, the event was over today). If you are interested in it, you can register here: st-theresa.forummotion.com/
You would have fun there~ *is promotion XDD*


And, for my infantrum/Indonesian Fanfiction friends, I really sorry because my fanfictions would be hiatus for a while XDDD It's just... every time I open my internet/computer, it's always ended to the said forum and become lazy to open the others ^^;;

And lastly... Hapyy B'day for everyone who B'Day when I'm hiatus!! Sorry tbacause I can't congrats you in time! :P

Just like Toki request, here a Kichiku megane fanart by me. Sorry if it's bad  T^T

Preview:


( Whole Picture click here )
Hope you like it ^^

HAPPY B'DAY larva_zax ! it's not that I forget, but my lj was error yesterday and can't posting a journal... *pissed off*

Omigot, I know I'm so late (I'm late in every fandom XD) but now I'm in love with Kagamine Len from Vocaloid!!! <==(start become shota)

maybe because I'm a twin-fetish XD I like Kagamine Rin, too, but prefer Len!!!!

Like usual, I try to not liking Kaito, (because so much people like him), but I failed. When I heard his voice for the first time I become, "what's with this one? his voice kinda like transvetite/(banci)"
that's because I heard a fan-made song ^^;; but when I hear his voice which arranged by a very good composer in You Tube, I start to think his voice was cool and start to like him D8

don''t really like Miku because I don't really like her moe voice, but I like her for cute and weird XD

ok, finish for the rambling ^^;;